So I was having a pretty good day today. Got a lot of cleaning accomplished and even bought a new washer and dryer (as we are in the process of buying our first home !!). Then it was like the floor was tooken from underneath me..... As it often feels when something goes wrong with my diabetes....... I had changed my pod before dinner and put it on my arm because I am trying to give my lower back and abdomen a little rest. When I initially put it in it felt okay but about 45 minutes later I felt a severe cramp in my tricep. Tears were rolling down my face as I told my husband to remove my pod immediatley. My daughter, my mother, and my niece were watching in horror as my husband removed it and I was hysterical. It was a combination of things that made me breakdown.
1) My blood sugars were a little high all day today.
2) I was in a lot of pain because I guess the pod was hitting a nerve or something.
3) I new I was wasting $50 because I had to throw out a brand new pod.
4) And the most horrible reason was the look on my daughter's face. She was so scared and worried about me. and I felt horrible that I had to put her through it. I tryed to hold in the tears and tell her everything was okay but she knew that something was wrong and I hated that I couldn't take the worry from her.
Afterwards, my husband came into the kitchen where I was replacing my pod and hugged me. I told him I hated this disease and that I wish I didn't have to put my family through these worrisome times. He said to me the words that as most to of you already know is kinda like a pet peave for me. He said " Well you could have it a lot worse". I said to him well I don't. This is my reality and to me it is the worst !!" I know he meant well but that is just not what was going to make me feel better..... So I figured instead, I would come on here and vent to you guys again because I feel that you guys will understand more of what I am going through. I want to thank you all for being here and giving me advice . I appreciate all of it and on hear I do not feel like an outsider !! Thanks guys !!