Hi there! I have felt like that a lot lately. I was diagnosed two years ago and have been struggling a bit ever since. My A1C went up to 7.6 which was hard to hear. I have always been between 6.5-7. Not sure why I can't ever get below that.
Lately I have been freaking out about complications after our local news station ran a story about Diabetes Complications. It has consumed my mind ever since. I was intially diagnosed type 2 for six months--even though I am 5'7' and was 100lbs. It wasn't until my weight dropped to under 100 lbs and I looked like a walking skeleton that my doctor finally decided to run an anti-body test on me. I think that because I am 30 he thought I was wasy too old to have type 1--even though the classic symptoms were there. It freaks me out to think how long I went without insulin and what that did to my body. Thank God, I got a great endo.
It is wonderful that you are going to start scrapbooking. I need to find something like that. I am thinking of taking a flower arranging class with my mother.
I am really gladto hear that you fired your diabetes coach as I can't stand when people make ignorant comments or act like they know what you're going through. This is my first real post--even though I'm responding, not really posting. I understand how you feel--broken. What we live with is hard--it's a 24/7 illness that you can't take a break from. It's horrible and while things could always be worse, you are ABSOLUTELY entitled to feel the way you feel. I am glad to know that I am not alone in my feelings.
Sen me a note when you feel this way--it is nice to know that you're not alone and there is someone else who feels exactley the same way you do. Take care!