This is my first time on here but I don't know any other diabetics to ask! I'm a woman in my late 20's-T1 for 20 years. I've had boyfriends, but sometimes I'm not interested in dating, I just want to have sex! (I can't believe I'm saying that out loud!) I always feel like I need to explain and even apologize for my CGM; I used to be on the pump but went off after College because I hated explaining it to guys- I'm fine telling them I'm diabetic but hate having a physical marker.
I definitely have a complex around my diabetes, which I’m working on in therapy. I have truly no idea where I got the notion that having a little machine attached to me makes me unattractive (no guy has ever said anything to me) but I find myself planning when I might hook up with someone around when I change my CGM, so I can just take it off, which feels crazy.
I’m wondering if anyone else has struggled with self-acceptance, or has any tips for how to feel sexy even when you have a CGM or pump attached. I now think having T1 makes me capable and strong, and anyone who doesn’t see that isn’t worth my time, but when I’m hooking up or having sex I really struggle to be okay with the visible marker of my diabetes. I may have some core beliefs about what a woman is supposed to look like that are getting in the way, but if anyone has dealt with this and come to love themselves naked with a CGM or pump on, I would love some support!