So, I am about 3 weeks into my second year of college and even though I was diagnosed over spring break last school year I feel like this year has brought on new and numerous diabetic concerns.
First, I don’t know what it is, but over the summer and into the very start of this school year my BG’s were good and in range (for the most part). Now I am always going high, (above 300) and I haven’t changed my eating habits, or my insulin or anything! I count my carbs, but when dinnertime rolls around I’m always really high, and no matter how much insulin I give myself to bring it down, ill be high until bedtime.
Also, I feel like I am always worrying about my diabetes. Last year, it was in the back of my mind, but it was all very new and confusing, and being a diabetic didn’t really matter to me until it came time to eat meals. However this year, I’m scared of going low often, and can feel myself going high a lot and it makes me frustrated. I don’t know how to tell my friends about what I’m going through, because most people just don’t get it. I live in the dorms, and I am having a really hard time readjusting to college life. Many of my friends here party often (my school is kind of a “party school”), and I no longer want to continue to be the partier I was before diabetes (I don’t want to go real low and or have health problems). I guess all that on top of not having a major yet, wanting to transfer to another school and feeling really alone has really gotten to me. I thought that the diagnoses was rough, but now that it has really started to set in that I am going to have diabetes for life, and am going to have to deal with highs from stress, and stress from highs, and lows, and constant blood glucose checking, and injections…I don’t want to go back to when I was first diagnosed, and I know I can’t go back to a time before I had diabetes, I just want to feel comfortable and secure with my diabetes, which means not having to worry or stress too much about it. How do other people deal with the stress and worrying that goes along with being a diabetic?