Hello. I'm Jessica, and I've had my type 1 for 9 years. I've always been fiercely independent and I DESPISE that my life hinges on my ability to properly administer something that my body is SUPPOSED to make for itself. It makes me feel like a broken-down car, always needing maintenance.
I think one way my diabetes has really affected my relationship is the role reversal with my parents and realizing how self-absorbed even those with best intentions can be. The number of times my friends offer me a snack, and when I say 'no, I can't. I'd have to take a shot', they say 'oh yeah, I forgot!' And early on in my diagnoses I had a sick day where to cure I low, I needed 15 grams of carb and my dad handed me an entire bottle of gatorade, which had 14 grams of carb PER SERVING! I know that saying 'you have no idea how hard it is to be me' is a typical teen-angst thing, but realizing at 15 that I had to be more knowledgeable than even my dad made me, and still makes me feel like I am so alone in taking care of myself because even those closest to me forget what I have to do, or forget how to read nutrition labels or count carbs. I hate that I rely on a liquid in a bottle and a syringe, and feel completely isolated from my friends and family.
Does anyone else ever feel these things? Just wondering.