I'm Mandie. [Amanda] I was diagnosed when I was 13 years old with a blood sugar of 984. I was diagnosed the second month of my 8th grade year and I lost a lot of people who I thought were my friends. I realized they weren't friends if they continued to tell me everything I touched would get Diabetes [even a stupid COMPUTER!] I had teachers turn their backs on me and went through a lot of the same things you went through. Depression? Yes, my father was a Diabetic as well. He passed away two years before I got diagnosed. As far as the schedule that's HARSH! I've never had a dr. giving me a schedule of that. May I ask why two shots at 11am? Have you considered switching to the pen? Or even the pump? I've been through 6 endocrinologists, and my PedEndo wouldn't let me go on the pump because she said I was a "type 2 diabetic" I've had three doctors confirm I'm a Type 1 Diabetic, two said I was a Type 2 and one said I was a Type 1.5. I'm telling you it does get better. Things may be right right now tough and you want to give up, but I was diagnosed 11 years, 8 months, and 11 days ago. I've had my ups and downs, as well as I'm sure everyone else has. But my dear it gets better. If you're having a doctor tell you that, or won't let you switch the schedule around then it's time to SWITCH doctors. Don't stop finding one until your completely satisfied and comfortable. It's taken me to get to 6 Endocrinologists to tell you that!. Sleeping schedules will be off on certain days, I hate to admit that. You did not deserve what you got. It's not your fault so please get that through your mind. I was on 8 - 15 shots a day because I was so high when I was diagnosed
it took forever to get something under control. I would work out and go
high, I would eat a small piece of fruit, take the insulin for it and go
high. You can go on the pen, it's easy to carry around, or like someone
said the pump. I've been on the pump for 6 years come July 20th this
year and yes it's so much easier. There are all types of pumps, you
would have to see what works best for you, talk to your sister about it
with the pros and cons of having a pump for me it out weighs the shots
10 - 1. I hope you are able to get everything you want in switching to a
new doctor if need be, or even going to a Diabetic camp, perhaps
looking at pumps too. After having the pump for 5 years, 11 months and 8 days? It's been the best thing I could have ever done. Though some times I get angry and throw my pump or take a "pump vacation" I know it's much better then having shots or even the pens!
Now, for the schedule I'm surprised. You shouldn't be held to something so strict. Life happens and that seems as if it's not workable. So you work around it. I highly would get a new Endocrinologist. Just from past experiences I've had some Endos who were in the room for 5 mins and then left me in there for an hour not coming back. Stuff like that is unacceptable and you should expect the unexpected from a doctor. Have you thought about getting involved in the local JDRF in your area? If you get involved in something like that, or a diabetes support group then you're not alone. If you don't want to give yourself a shot one day say at 5pm or 11pm, or even 5am! Ask your sister. "Hey, do you mind doing this for me I'm just so beat I need some help." one thing that I've not realized now is how much my mother helps me when I ask. There are times where I'm super low and I don't feel like treating, moving, or doing anything about it and I'm lying on the bed/couch/where ever I've passed out at from being so tired and she's usually waking me up to check my blood sugar. If I'm super low there she is with a spoonful of something I hate to get the blood sugar up. If you need to go to a carbohydrate counting class. Make you stress your dismay and sadness to them as well. Reach out to those around you. A friend, someone. There are many places where you can get materials. Diabetes Camps are ALWAYS a blast. If you have a Lions Camp anywhere near you find a sponsor and you could possibly [If you have two sponsors] go to two weeks of Diabetes Camps for free! I went to Camp Sweeney when I was a teenager and I went to Texas Lions Camp as well. To be with someone who had the same illness as myself I was relieved in the sense of knowing I wasn't alone.
And I want you to know YOU'RE not alone.
Remember this.. It gets me through the days on my rough time when I'm dealing with people who don't understand me, or someone said something.. "Be kind to Diabetics, we deal with enough p r i c k s."