It does not surprise me that she obviously was struggling with her diabetes. We all do at times- just sometimes more severe than other times. I am so saddened to hear that she was in denial and died before coming out of it.
When I was 19, I kept reducing by insulin by overexercising and eating very little......well, 20 lbs later and dehydrated...and then to a point where I was having a hard time taking any insulin.....I finally hit low.....where I had to drive myself to the hospital and check in because I was in severe DKA........(could have died!)
I learned from that stint, that I was in denial....I was sick of having this disease.....so I tried to ignore it and almost killed myself in the process....
25 years later....I have never gone that far in denial of the disease.....but I have my bouts of denial all too often
denial by not
1) taking my bloodsugar when I should
2) eating anything and everything without thinking about it- only later to have to correct with insulin
3) not having any glucose on me for emergencies (actually, I am pretty good about that now- I used to be reckless about it and did not have a glucagon)
4) going to bed without taking my bloodsugar
Maybe your list is different, more or less......just a wake up call that this disease is difficult to manage. People who are critical about management of disease often time has not had to live with one. One of the many things diabetes has taught me is to try not to judge other people when you are not walking in their shoes!
Anyone want to share their forms of denial of this disease....and perhaps....how they help themselves or get help to not deny the fact they have diabetes?
5) not going to my endo appointments
about a month and a half later, it caught up to me