Done with it

ive had diabetes for 6 years  and im just getting completely sick of it im sick of poking and prodding my fingers. im sick of  taking 4-6 shots in my arms  & legs each day, im just tired and mad at  diabetes.  Ive hardly even got to be a kid, i had to  gain a lot of responsibility and i  hardy am able to be a kid, and it  is unfair.  i just want some more support.  and  a while ago i  just stopped   taking care of myself  i tested  like once a day and  i lost  alot of control over my diabetes but now im     locking it down making it better  my  A1c  is 10.6 .  so anyone who will support me   i just need someone to talk too.

You have come to the right place. There are so many people here for you to talk to, and the best part is that they actually know what yu are going through. Have you thought about a pump? I was really anti-pump for a long time, but then I just got sick of everything, and my A1c was over 8. Now, my last one was 6.2, and I feel a lot better. Do I ever wish I could just be normal? Of course, I don't think that feeling ever goes away, but this allows me to feel a little more normal.

The boat you're in is a crowded one lol. Fortunately, we've all (pretty sure at least) have had the feelings you have. I was diagnosed when I was 4 1/2 and I feel like I missed a big bit of my childhood too. The constant upkeep: pricks, shots, doctor appts, counting carbs, avoiding sugars, blah blah blah left me feeling like I was targeted or something. "Why me?" was a question I always asked myself. Out of all the bad people in the world, I was the one to end up with this horrible and possibly debilatating disease???? WTF?? After years of neglect and disdain for my body's inability to make insulin, I came to a sort of acceptance. I've been through a lot of different things in my life- many mistakes and a couple hardships that I thought I wouldn't get through. At one point, I decided that I needed to leave the past in the past and live with what I have now. I can't change the past, or change who I am or how I work, all I can do is accept the past, keep the past in the past, and work to make my future a good one. I included my diabetes in this realization. I started to work on my sugars and now have control. And although I still have thoughts of how annoying doing my whole diabetes routine is, I just think to myself that it could be a lot worse. I can only wonder how kids diagnosed with cancer at a young age must feel, and I'm here complaining about a manage-able disease lol. Anyways, think positively and good luck.