Hey @jlecount welcome to Type One Nation. Well… first of all i think it helps knowing that every single person here knows what it’s like. I don’t have to explain to anyone what suddenly dropping JUST after brushing your teeth is like. or what waking up to a 39 mg/dl is like, at 3:15 AM. So that helps. I think for me the first 20 years were tougher than the 2nd 20 years, only because I had that hope… you know the one… the “the cure will be here in 5 years” hope. Not that I am a defeatist now, I just gave up wishing, dreaming, hope-to-believing, not looking at what I am doing but reeeeealy wishing my life was different. I guess it still sucks, but it’s not like I have to be fully conscious about it anymore, and so it’s more of a back-of-the-brain function than a pen and paper right in front of me function.
don’t know if it helps or if it even makes sense. anyway I’m glad you’ve joined us at the party no one wants to be at!
I agree with @SteveK … and Steve BTW, welcome! bad days happen. then there’s the next one. One thing that help me but sounds a little different Steve, is this idea of some noble battle I am always fighting. I have suffered anxiety and depression and it took a long time to try to think differently. If this battle/fight thing works then run with it… for me, it eventually got too exhausting. Not that I gave up in any way, that wouldn’t work with my personality. What does work is I found a way to make peace with diabetes, it was the only way I could close this never ending feeling of being at war with myself. So a peace treaty concept is my current strategy.
don’t underestimate the value of a good toy. sometimes a contraption update is “just the thing”. my next pump will be a feedback pump like the TSlim… for now I am using G6 independently with an ancient 530 medtronic. something new sometimes shifts things in my head. I treated myself to a “smartwatch” and so now taking a blood sugar I look at this dial widget right on my wrist. A far cry from testing urine in a test tube! I figure if I get to giggle a little, I’m doing it right.