i am a mother to an amazing little boy named seth. seth was dxd sept 1 2010. he had his 9th birthday a few weeks later. he does so very well with all of this. as do i for the most part. i am a control freak so all of this just gets pushed into the schedule of our everyday lives. and we do very well with it, considering. but tonight, for some reason, i have all this emotion trying to come out. which i hate. because i try so very hard to just keep it together. i have no time for tears and anger. but my goodness, i can't stop crying tonight! all the fears i have for my son are just flooding out...and the anger of why has this happened? it makes me so angry that this innocent little boy has to struggle with this for the rest of his life. all the stares he gets when trying to check his sugar or give a shot...all the unwanted advice from strangers...all the questions...all the lows when he''s just trying to be a normal boy and play with his friends...all the highs that make him feel like he's losing his mind...the list goes on forever. i'm scared to death. completly scared. i want to be able to look at my son and promise him everything is going to be ok...that i'm going to protect him. and the truth is...i will try my best...but i don't know what is going to happen. i have no idea what this disease will do to him.
i'm sorry for being a whiney hiney...just needed to get it out.
thanks for listening.