In need of help. Type *pin cushion* 1 with bi-polar disorder

Hello this is my first post here.

First, I'd like to say thank you to everyone for being so open and supportive.  I've browsed many of the posts here and knew this was the place for me to find some people that know what's going on in "the life".

Now onto me.

I'm drowning.  I've been a type 1 since a few months before my 16th birthday.  Turned my world upside down.  My parents were super supportive until after my 'rebellious' post-18 years.  That time in your life when you want to get out on your own.  Things were not easy.

My step-mother, for all intents and purposes, my MOM always thought I had a depression/mental disorder.  Not in a mean way, she after all was bi-polar herself and saw many of the same symptoms in me.

We never pursued this suspicion for some reason, possibly my parents religious beliefs.  Not sure.

Anyway, background finished.  I was diagnosed as bi-polar in February of this year, and as of yet can't tell any effect from the drugs they've prescribed me.  I'm taking 150mg of Lamotrigine, and 50mg of Trazodone for insomnia.  I'm going to spill my guts this month to both my medical doctor and my therapist about this problem I'm having, but wanted some feedback from anyone else in this position.

What it all comes down to is, I can't tell what is my out of control blood sugar, my lazy lifestyle, my bi-polar, whatever.  I don't give a *fill in the blank* about my sugars, and I don't know if I need more help with the bi-polar or getting my sugars locked down, or where to start.  I feel like I don't have any solid ground to stand on.

Where do I begin?

Please anyone who has been here.  I need an example, a personal story, some sort of help.  Please.