Hey. I'm having a hard time. I was diagnosed a year and a half ago, and I've done well. I have pretty solid control. I test often, wear a pump and a CGM, and obsess over numbers a little too much.
Recently, I keep getting scared. For some reason, complications are looming in my mind and won't leave me alone. I went rock climbing today and scraped up my knees, and just couldn't keep from thinking about how a scrape that small could lead to me losing a leg later.
I know that good control is the key, and that i just have to keep working, but something has shifted in the way i deal with the disease recently and i've started thinking of complications as inevitable. Which I know they aren't. I am an EMT, and see people all the time who have dealt with and are dealing with those complications, whose lives have been ravaged by them. I keep testing and correcting and trying to eat well, and I guess that's all I can do. It just feels so hard.