I am just completely annoyed with my blood sugars and how I have been doing with the diabetes. Horrible to say the least. I havent been to a dr now in 4 months because I dont have insurance that I need and of course I cant afford the blood work and the general visit charge. So I havent had blood work done now in IDK how long and I am afraid to see the results of my blood work. I know it is going to be bad.
It seems like every time I check my blood sugar it is sky high and then I end up correcting for the blood sugar but I end up eating something shortly after I take insulin. Even when I do take the correct insulin after eating it seems like my blood sugar doesnt react to the insulinl. For instance I can eat my maple and brown sugar oatmeal in the morning with a 122 blood sugar take the proper amount of insulin and still when I check it an hour or two later it is way higher in the 3 or 400 range. I get so tired of that even after following my correction and carb ratios. ugh.....
I know all of the complications that can come from diabetes and I want to get my numbers under control but it seems like every time I start or decide that it is time to gain control I have a couple of good numbers or end up with a completely out of whack blood sugar and it screws me all up to the point where I guess I could call it falling off the band wagon :(
I just get so sick and tired of dealing with it that its not even funny. Although I know I am going to have to deal with this the rest of my life and there is really nothing I can do about it. I have applied for some type of insurance within the past 45 days and hopefully I can get it and be able to get back to a dr soon but I think the time is up for DHS to make a decision which means I am going to have to try and call them and see if a decision was ever made. It would sure be nice to find out what is going on and hopefully get back to a dr and get blood work done even though like I said I am afraid to know what my numbers are going to be.
Just venting about everything. Quite a long post.