Hang in there. You're doing a great job of knowing the "little things" you need to do. Sounds like you could use a big hug...AIR HUG!
I finally received my rowing macine/recumbent bike yesterday. Put it together last night and used it for 15 minutes today. It is everything I was hoping for!
Since I've last posted, I've lost about 5 lbs. with little exercise and little regard for my diet. I do think about what I need to do, and I believe, subconsciously, I know I need to watch what I eat. I find myself not eating as much and trying to make healthier food choices. If I go to McDonalds (or any fast food place), whatever I buy I only eat about 1/2 to 3/4 of it, instead of eating the whole thing. That really seems to have made a difference in my brain. Not only do I think about the calories I'm not eating, but I also think about the money I'm wasting which makes me desire it less (weird way of doing it, I know, but it works for me).
The next thing I'm going to do is create lists, daily. That helps me check off the things I want to pay attention to for the day and keeps me on target. It'll only be a couple of things, like "Aerobic exercise for 15 minutes" or "Eat 3 fruits today". I'm usually so scatterbrained that if I know I can focus on a few things, the more likey I will be to accomplish my mission.
Keep up the good work everybody and let me know if you need words of encouragement. It surely helps me a bunch!
Have the best day ever!