@it_Leo If I can say, I don’t know what your circumstances are with therapy. I recommend that you go alone. It sounds like you don’t want to lie to your therapist, so don’t. Be honest with them. Be honest with your family. Sit down your mom and tell her that you feel like everything is suffocating you. If you go to a therapist and it is at all possible, go alone, and leave therapy conversations for therapy. Something that may help you now, that one of my high school teachers taught me a couple of years ago, is to tell someone or write down a high and low of every day or week. Saying that to a diabetic makes it sound a little stupid as highs and lows of the day sound completely different in this community.
My highs and lows of this week
Low: I had many unusually high blood sugars this week and I feel overwhelmed because I am going about this week like any other. (this happens sometimes, but it can still be frustrating)
High: I got 100% on my inorganic chemistry quiz. Woop, Woop. (Side note, inorganic has been kicking my butt, so this was a huge achievement for me)
This allows you to bring your struggles to the outside, instead of keeping them bottled up. I like to ask my family members there’s as well. We may never have the same struggles and accomplishments, but it allows me to see that everyone has some. It can always feel hard to find what our “Highs” are compared to our lows, but finding that positively, brings perspective to every week. You definitely do not have to do this, it is just something that I like to do for myself.
Maybe for you, this looks different than mine. Maybe if you are struggling with taking medication. You focus your highs and lows of the day or week on that.