Last night as I was preparing dinner the kids were around doing various things. My youngest (6) was watching tv, my oldest (11) was doing his homework at the kitchen table, and my daughter (8, type 1) was at the island coloring. A very regular night in our household. Out of the blue she says "Mom, I think if anyone else is going to get diabetes I think it's going to be Carter (my six year old)" After dropping the plate I was drying (from shock) I proceeded to go off the deep end. I yelled, I screamed, made my daughter feel terrible by saying "what a horrible thing to say" and "why would you say such a mean spirited comment". She started to cry, then I cried and locked myself in the den until I could compose myself. To say I feel terrible is the understatement of the year :-( Dinner was quiet, as was the evening. I owe my daughter an explanation and plan to have a chit chat afterschool. I owe her a very big apology :-(
Why did I react that way? I'm trying to understand why I reacted like I did to such a comment. Especially considering it was said in a passing, not meaning anything type of way. She wasn't being mean. Not in the least. She wasn't wishing it on anyone.. she was just casually talking like an eight year old talks.
I'm crying as I type this!! What is wrong with me!! :-(