We are just over 4 months into this whole new diabetic world. My son turned 4 on last Monday (9/28) which was also his 4 month D anniversary. What a wild ride. He is doing great - he's got a great honeymoon going on so I don't know how we are going to feel when he starts to come out of it.
It has been a struggle to deal with all the emotions I have about this disease: grief over losing my child's good health, anger over such a crappy disease, anger at people who tell me to look on the bright side that 'hey he doesn't have cancer', frustration with people who think that "You're handling this all so well" when they have absolutely no idea how I'm not. Frustration with my son that sometimes he just acts like a four year old and has a tantrum or is defiant, and I have to first think "Hey is he low? high?" Sadness to hear other peoples stories of struggles and loss because of diabetes.
Most days I love coming on Juvenation. Some days though, I can't stand it because I feel like I learn about some new complication or future struggle that I feel compelled to worry about. I have usually been such a positive and optimistic person, but since D, I feel like it is really hard to see the good and I just see all the scary monsters that are leaning out on our future. I am working on getting my positve mojo back, but it is hard. I can't think of another time in my life when I've had such 'negative' raw emotions that I have to deal with for such an extended period of time.
What are other people feeling? I would love to hear about others experiences with their emotions following diagnosis or how you deal with them even many years after dx.