I'm so terribly burnt out right now and I'm not quite sure why. I'm starting school monday and I'm gonna be a senior. Which I really don't want to be and I'm not sure why. I have no idea where my life is going anymore. I got yelled at by a co-worker today because I don't know what I want to study or where I want to go to school next year. It doesn't matter that I've finally gotten my A1c lower than 10. It was a 6.6 Wednesday. My accomplishment there doesn't really matter. I had finals rodeo this weekend and totally bombed it. I'm supposed to get a rodeo scholarship, but now I'm not sure that'll happen. I just want to go back to when I was little and had nothing to worry about.
Sorry about the ranting, I just need someone to vent to and you guys are the best listeners out there! :) Especially since I have no friends.
Sorry to hear, Janna. Life can deal us rough patches. Last year, I quit one job and then got hired in another, only to get fired from that second job earlier this year. At certain points of our lives, I think we all find ourselves yearning for when times were simpler.
Vent as you need to during this tough time. After I got fired, I was really a huge wreck, especially the first few days after the news hit (my folks were very worried for my mental health). In time, though, I remembered that nothing in life is permanent - there's always something else out there we can try. There's a popular saying out there that's simple but has some truth: if you've never failed, you've never really tried. For my part, I'm going back to school and focusing toward getting a Master's degree so I can teach. I think that profession is much better suited for me than clerical professions. While I'm not able to attain my dream job at the moment (editor/proofreader), teaching sounds like the next best thing, so I'm going for it while I can.
As for friends: despite being "feely," I'm pretty shy, so most of my true friends are my family. I hope you have some kind of support system like family who can help get you through this period in your life, because goodness knows life is hard enough without a lack of support on top of it.
Anyway, just keep plugging on: it's all we can do in life, and it beats the alternative of giving up, I believe. :) I really think we all have something we can offer, so explore your options and keep trying things out as your life progresses. Good luck!