Nervous about ttc baby #2!

I am exceptionally nervous this time around trying to get first pregnancy was a breeze despite having to deal with my T1D. I took excellent care of myself and maintained an A1C of 6%. However, now that we are in the pre-conception planning stages for kiddo #2, I am starting to get nervous. I have 4 weeks left on my Seasonale and I meet with my OB/GYN on February 4 for my yearly and to discuss whether or not we should go ahead and try for #2. Things have changed since kiddo #1...For example, I developed hyperthyroidism (which is completely under last TSH reading was 1.170 on a scale of 0.450-4.500) during the first tri of my first pregnancy and was put on PTU. No issues there; I'm only on 50 mg per day. Then, in Februrary of last year I was put on a mood stabilizer (Lamictal). I have been on the OneTouch Ping pump for over a year and love it (LIFESAVER!!!) I still have sugar fluctuations, though. For the past 6 or so months, my sugars have floated near the low to mid 200's with an occasional 400. My first step is to tackle the sugars. My goal is to have my A1C back to 6-6.5% (next reading will take place at the end of February) before getting pregnant. To an outsider, it may seem like I have it together. BUT...I'm really, really nervous this time around. I think I need to stay off of WebMD...I'm worried that I won't be able to conceive. I can't even explain why I feel this way. I did great with my first pregnancy...I was induced at 39 weeks and my daughter weighed a healthy 8 lbs, 9 oz and I had absolutely no complications (besides preterm contractions causing me to stay the night in the hospital twice in 2 months...). Have any of you dealt with these feelings the second time around? I get myself all worked up for what seems like absolutely nothing. I guess I'm afraid that my team of docs will discourage us from trying.

Katie - I totally agree with you - you need to stay off webmd!   ;-)   I think keeping an open mind to what your doctors recommend is a great idea, and know that if it's gonna happen, you will get yourself in shape and stay in shape just like you did last time.    That first time parenthood thing is TOUGH and the 2nd pregnancy for me was tough (but I had a one year running around too) on the tiredness, but I managed.   So, listen to your doctors.  I'm guessing they'll be able to figure out your meds so you can have another child safely if you decide to.   Good luck at your Endo & OB/GYN appointments.