So I spent all of Memorial Day weekend in the hospital with ketoacidosis, A1C was 12.5. I’m a runner, just returning from a torn calf muscle (now I know why I tore it-high blood sugar cramps). This was the absolute last thing I expected. I went to urgent care Friday afternoon with what I thought was a UTI, they check my blood sugar and send me to the hospital. I felt fine. I thought I was going to pick up some antibiotics then go for a run. I’m so overwhelmed.
I haven’t cried for 3.5 years (when my last boyfriend and I broke up) until this. I will soon be known as that crazy girl that always cries at the grocery store/pharmacy. I’m 3 for 3 at the store since I got out of the hospital. Its a combination of food that I now have to give myself extra (or larger) shots to eat or just not eat and the super pricy test strips at the pharmacy that insurance will only pay for about a third of what I feel I absolutely need at a minimum. I feel ok with sugar at 40 and 599 in ketoacidosis and the effect of exercise especially hasn’t been predictable. That scares me and I’m terrified of not realizing I’m super low (bad immediately) or super high (less scary immediately but the long term consequences terrify me). I live alone with my border collie (new project - train him as an alert dog) and will not change that.
At least I just have to work harder/longer hours to earn that money and I have the capacity to do so. However there are so many things on which I’d rather spend that time and money. Physically, I feel better than ever except my fingertips and bruising on my stomach (I’m a skinny runner type, not much fat, never has been), but emotionally, I’ll get there. Stress baking and using that math major to calculate carbs/cookie and compare glycemic index with the insulin curve. This is so scary. At least its not tax season (I’m a CPA) but all the costs scare me (already spent like $400 on extra test strips because insurance pays for 4/day and I’ve been going through at least a dozen between lots of testing on heavy training days and screwing up test strips with the “not enough blood” error). And the potential of passing out on the trails which is why I test so much. I already have 4 meters just because I’ve been asking for samples/extras.