[quote user="Greg Borkman"]
...a shady figure came and tampered with my vials of insulin and i woke up when the guy ran away....before he ran away i looked down at where i usually put my cannula and there were these giant bumps that looked like a giant mosquito stung me a ton of times.
I woke up this morning and i had to change my site....
Dreams fascinate me, and although I am not a psychoanalyst, I can't resist taking a stab at the meaning. You really have to know a lot more about "the dreamer," what's going on at the present time in the dreamer's life, the dreamer's childhood and past, etc. to venture a guess at the true meaning of the symbols and emotions presented in a dream. That being said, here goes anyway.
In the dream, YOU (the person who is having the dream) is NOT the same conscious, "egoic" you when you are awake. The YOU in the dream is the subconscious you -- your "inner child." What your subconscious "inner child" means by "MY vials of insulin" is your physical body specifically as represented by your pancreas and its function. Your inner child does not understand Type 1 Diabetes the way your conscious mind does. The child only knows that some "shady" unknown, mysterious figure is messing with his physical body. As Crochet Nut asked... WHO is this shady figure? Well, all we know is that the "guy ran away" when you woke up, and for that to be true, "the shady figure" also exists within YOUR mind. The shady figure IS the conscious YOU.. the "egoic" you who is the Greg Borkman we all know... including you.
What does this all mean? It means that your "inner child" subconscious you is holding your "egoic" conscious you responsible for tampering with your physical body, specifically by way of Type 1 Diabetes. Now introduce the mosquito image which symbolizes something which is "sucking" or "draining" the life out of your body. (Afterall, that's what mosquitos do... especially a giant one stinging you "tons" of time.) Wow, your "inner child" is very angry and resentful about this whole Type 1 Diabetes thing! Don't worry, Greg, you're not alone with these emotions. This is a common psycological dynamic in most Type 1 Diabetics, especially ones who were diagnosed as young children.
What issue does the dream address? It's the issue of us blaming ourselves for our Type 1. Like most psychological issues, being aware of it is the first step in freeing yourself from its influence and pain.