So im pretty sure you can just call me the worst diabetic ever.. ive had diabetes for about 7 years now and the first 3 years i took very good care of myself and then when i moved to illinois my ways changed.. i stopped checking my blood sugar for days on end and i was in the hospital every week.. it was terrible and i hate to admit that i did that.. everyone asks why i made that desicion and all i can say is thats a good question.. im not even sure why i made those desicions so after about 3 years of doing that and getting caught and getting in trouble for it i changed back to taking care of myself because i got an insulin pump and i did a very goodjob up until about 2 months ago when i fell back into those bad ways...
My moms checks my meter every week to see if ive been checking my blood sugar and just to see how they are averaging out
So when my mom went to go check my meter this week she found 5 days of missing blood sugars... yeah i made the desicion to stop checking for 5 days this week.. yeah ik its a very terrible thing... idk what to do anymore.. i need help. i cant stop doing this.. idk why i even do this.. this time it hit me that i need to change and i need help.. im scared for myself.. my moms been telling me some really hurtful things like i guess ill just start planning your funeral and i guess shes right. i need help.. idk what to do! Idk why i do this.. :( im so scared and this took alot of nerve to post but im hoping someone can help me or has any ideas.. i feel like the worst diabetic ever and the biggest let down to my family. i want to change. i want help.